Isn't Life Just Unfair?

Heyy Blogsville... Missed Ya! No, I'm not done with exams, but come on give me a break, kk?

Anywayz, Quick question. Does any of you guyz have that member of the opposite sex that you're just so real with; That one person that you know deep down, your feelings have surpassed the 'friend-zone' with? That one person who sees right through your BS and isn't afraid to call you out on it; That one person who knows when you're faking a smile? The one you can tell anything and everything to without feeling like you'll be judged or looked at differently; The one who you argue with like an old married couple? The one you can call up at ANY time of the day or night and will still get his/her FULL Un-divided attention?

I certainly have some-one exactly like that, and in my own case, it happens to be my ex! Yes, My EX! I know all about why it's not a good idea to remain in touch with your ex and what have you, and with any of my other exes, I would have been at the fore-front of the supporters. But not with this particular fellow! No, I'm not being partial.

Some of you probably know him especially if I told you about him on twitter (chaii those DMs are HOT sha hehehe) or skype. For those who don't know, Imma tell you a little about him. But unfortunately, I won't mention names. I would've known him for three years this October, we started off as friends for a loong time before we decided to turn our friendship into something deeper.He's currently in Ireland, I'm in Hungary though! Imma admit, I would have thought you crazy if you had said we'd still be friends after the relationship. It had its ups and downs, of-course, but I guess we never let go of our friendship even while dating! I'm saying this because I've never been as open in other relationships as I was in the one I had with him!

As such when we decided to give up on the dating scene, it was more of a mutual agreement, no tears, tantrums or drama! NO we didn't have a fight or anything that led to the break-up, we just decided to back-off! In fact, I think you could say we had more of a friendship than a relationship even then! And Now, It's like we can't get enough of each other. We're on ALL of each other's social networks (except BBM and that's because I refused to activate mine). The chemistry's still there HOT as ever, the attraction deeper than before. And the flirting, OMG don't even get me started. People still believe we still got something going on, whether under-g or otherwise, especially since we're both still SINGLE! ;-).

We BOTH acknowledge the facts, hell we even talk about them and meehn, those conversations leave me speechless! He's so open about his feelings and I just can't help but reciprocate. He understands that it's hard for me to open-up to any-one and he's always willing to wait until I'm ready to open-up! We talk like every-other day, we talk about the randomest things, chaii, we can talk for hours, even go all-night long and believe me, there's nothing in particular we talk about even his 'runs' aren't hidden from me! In fact, I SKYPED WITH HIM like 2 Hours ago!! He got me 'addicted' to Naeto-C's 5and6 song, then I got addicted to Naeto-C's '10 over 10' and 'Share My Blessings' tracks. He's always begging me to activate the BBM stuff and I'm always threatening to change the phone. Yes, I'm mean like that!

Anyways, lemme stop here before I turn you guys away from my blog due 2 my loong posts.. *Smiles sweetly*

A WALK TO REMEMBER

I'm in a kinda teary mood this morning, so please excuse the flow of emotion you may feel in this post.. As it is sef, I don't even think I hav a title for this post, which is unusual in itself, cos I believe that all my posts have to have titles...Anyways sha, what prompted all this you may be wonderin?? Well, Imma just sae a movie... Crayzee ryt, I can imagine.. Buh not if yhu're a 'romantic' @ heart like me and den the movie in question was 'A Walk To Remember'... Apparently, there's also a book with the same name by Nicholas Sparks.. (Hmm mayb, that'll be the title of this post..)

The summary of the whole thingy sha is that: It was a high school setting, the heroine of the movie had Cancer, the hero was a bad, popular boy gone good (ofcourse thanks 2 d heroine naa)... Heroine was the daughter of the reverend, who had never done a bad thing in her life (before nko?) After some misdemeanour which almost got Hero expelled, but instead got him some school stuff that he'd never think of doing in his whole life which included being the lead role in the spring musical (Hero inside Hero movie??), and working with the ''slow learners' on Saturdays...They met when he asked her 2 help him with his lines for the play.. Initially, he didn't want his friends to know that he had to practice with her so he brushed her off 1ce in front of them but later regretted it after she refused 2 help him anymore.. Sha, he managed without her, show was a success, and he realised he was falin in luv with her.. She didnt want nyfing 2 do wiv him until the day he took her side against his friends when they played a nasty trick on her.. Then she decided to give him a chance and eventualli fell in love with him... All along she hadn't told him about the cancer, so when she did, she tried ending it with him as she knew she wouldnt live for long but he refused telling her that he wouldn't go away no mater what she did and even went so far as to prove that he meant what he said.. At the end of the whole thing sha, she died after they got married that summer, he made up with his dad and eventualli changed his course of life.. Please watch the movie, I've already spilled a lot of gist buh yhu still need to watch it to get how I feel...

Some of you might be wondering, ehen sooo what? They fell in love, she died, end of tori naa.. But not when you picture the guy who initially wanted to go 2 college and med-skool just to get awae from the small town now changin his mind to study medicine because he wants to (and I suspect because of her disease)... So my main gist is how many of us are actually willing to get married to someone despite the fact that we know they have one terminal disease or the other.. And how many of us are willing to actually do something for someone despite the fact that we know they can never re-pay us??This movie simply reminded me of some of my reasons for studying medicine, the power of friendship (whether positive or negative),and the fact that true love realli exists and that sometimes we don't have to do things just because we think we might or should be rewarded, but because we care soo much about the receiver and not the benefits..

GUYS, IN LOVE!!!

Never thought I'll be writing about sumthing like dis...It's realli amazing to hear about guyz falling in love... Nd I don't mean the crappy kinda jokes guys hav turned love into or d nonsense done all in the name of love ooh...NO, I mean the serious, real, honest-to-God kinda falling that RARELY happens to guys ooh... Soo when I heard the story, meehn, I just couldnt keep it 2 myself..

Sha, No be amebo I hear ooh.. In fact na d main actor 4 d stori wey tell mi d tin... (Lmao @ my pidgin) Nywayz, we're in med-skool 2gether and we were just yarning about random stuff sometime last week, then relationships came into the gist and he started telling mi about his, after getting my assurances that I would also tell him myne!! Soo d main gist was that he fell for this girl in skool some years back, and initialli just told her so as to get it outta his system. It worked, buh unfortunateli, when he returned 2 skool, the feeling just came back stronger than ever... Sha,he decided 2 go wiv d flow naa and a kinda unofficial relationship started between them... It became soo serious dat his FATHER even noticed his seriousness about the chick..

Suddenly a year afta the relationship became serious, the girl started forming 4 my friend, you know, doing all them things gals do whenever they want to misbehave nd stuff... It started subtly but surely that at a point he had to face facts... He simply took things easy afterwards, but even at that, it was hard not to notice that he was hurting... I was soo surprised that all I could do was stare at him so as to be positive that it was a guy who was talking to me and not a girl oo...I was soo touched that I just kept on giving him hugs, asin I soo felt 4 him cos he's this kinda person that you just find it not hard 2 like him and soo I just couldn't get how a chick could just push him aside.. (This is just me sha).. Another thing that pissed me off was that how could a girl who got a guy with a personality that most girls MIGHT kill for just push the guy aside... I mean, don't you realise that he's a rare kinda guy... HONESTLY, I still haven't REALLI seen guys like him ooh... I still dey wait dey look...

Sha, d main jist is simply I realised that people are realli different ooh and that the good guys are still in existence nd not extinct as we believed.... As Ayi Kwei Armah titled his book "The Beautiful Ones Are Not Yet Born"... tho' I myt add that the few that are already born are few and scarce... Sha God dey... Happeee New Month by the wae!!!

I THINK I FINALLY BELIEVE IN THE WORD/FEELING "LOVE!!!!

I'm afraid what I'm about to wryte might hurt some people I truly care about and I really want you guys to know I'm truly sorry. I just think it's tyme I clear the air concerning my feelings about the word love!! I've honestly never been the kind of girl who easily fell in love, so as you can imagine, on those rare instances where I did, I definitely fell hard!! Having said that, let me explain the above topic.

It's not like I've never believed in love, no, on the contrary, I was one of the strongest believers of that word. But thanks to an experience I had with some douche-bag in 2007, (yh, 1 of the few I fell for), I had to learn and grow up fast enough that it took me a long time to get back on my feet. The result of that experience was that I promised myself I was never going to cry for anybody anymore, irregardless of who the person was, and I'm proud to say that I've held on to that. It definitely wasn't easy but I had to use sarcasm as a way to make it happen. The downside to that is the fact that that decision took away every humane feeling I had at the time, though I've gotten them back. The only humane feeling I've yet to get back is the ability to cry when necessary, I still don't cry, no matter how touching a situation might be. I mean, the tears would be there, but they would never leave my eyes, you just had to look closely to know I really felt like crying but couldn't.

Another aftermath of that incident in 2007 was that I totally stopped believing in love, whether as a word or even as a feeling. I just totally convinced myself that there was no such thing as love. In fact, until recently, the word love wasn't in my vocabulary. The highest thing I could say to some-one was 'I like you', 'I care about you' etc. I could never say 'I love you' and mean it as love. I mean, I could say 'I love you', but while it meant just that to others, I meant it as 'I like you. It was so bad that for a while I went through the whole anti-Danielle Steel, anti-Nora Roberts phases, and started going through the pro-Stephen King, pro-Sidney Sheldon kinda phases, all to re-assure myself that love, whether true or otherwise didn't exist. I still remember my friends over here trying to make me believe in it again, even going so far as to quote 'Romeo and Juliet' and occassionally 'Titanic' and such romance-induced stuff for me, all to no avail. I even hated pet-names such as "baby-boo, sweets, honey, etc" because I felt they were fake and all a farce in cahoots with this thing called love. As a matter of fact, I don't hate it anymore, but I'm still not comfortable with them.

Until recently. And before you even start asking let me just say, YES, it's thanks to another guy. I've been friends with him for a couple of years now, we had a thing a while back, personally left because I wasn't so sure of myself among other reasons, continued being friends with him and when we both realised the attraction was still there, decided to get back together. And I'm really starting to get my old self back thanks to him, probably because he knows how to use sarcasm to get me thinking about stuff without even sounding pushy. (Don't start feeling fly here ooh!!lol) Sha sha, I had to re-think this whole love-stuff again and I realised I'd actually started believing in it again. I'm not going to make this sound like some Mills and Boon romance story ooh, ehen, so don't even start going all teary-eyed and stuff ...(lmao)
Anyways, without deviating and wasting too much grammar, I just want to say that I'm sorry if this piece really hurts any of you guys. I just didn't want to go down that same road again. And I LOVE you guys, (nd I realli mean love you)! Thanks for being there!!
This is for y'all. It's Taylor Swift's 'Mine'

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XPBwXKgDTdE